hypocrite's oath

The Hypocrite's Oath
It's strange the way my mind came up with this interpretation of the above famous title..Even stranger because i wasn't thinking consciously..Seems like my sub conscious mind is a hell lot more
creative than i estimated.....
"I promise to abide by each and every rule of being a perfect hypocrite all my life.To speak anything but the truth,to never make people show what they actually are and to be a s****r my entire life.To leave all sanity,logic and sense and reasoning back at home and never ever to appear knowledgable on any one of the above even if somehow i am found gulity to possess them..." "I promise to always BE THERE for people with the whole and sole and full awareness that it makes whatsoever no difference to them if it's me,or someone else or another third person present there to comfort them.To confide into them fully knowing them and also knowing that they shall store it in the rot of their brain to use it against me someday(how true and so right were when u said it).""I promise to stick by them with the full awareness that i am only a matter of conveninece to them,however if i dare to behave the same way i am a traitor,a blot on the name of friendship and so many unspeakable names"......
This in essence is what the hypocrite's oath must be...Since it is a "hypocrite's" oath in the truest sense.But perhaps this is where the denial aspect comes into picture..The worst form of denial..To be all this and more and be hypcritcal over it too!!Jesus!how much can one lie??Even ur existance is one big farce...Not that i need to justify one bit about all what i've said but this much i'd like to add,make no mistake of assuming this is some frustuated loser psycho whohas created a "space" for herself to vent out her deepest frustuation.At the cost of sounding naive i'll say this i've long ago stopped thequest of searching for the good in every human i meet..No sir,i'm not that great.. It is a kind of greatness which i cannot conceive of..I'm not saying i'm the superlative picture perfect human who is too good for this "big bad world"..no,that's not what i say..I'm as much guilty as they are perhaps more,but in a different sort of a way,atleast i do not pretend to be otherwise...And that is one thing which gives me all the comfort in the world..