"it seems tough to endure the darknessnot just because of the uncertainity it bringsbut also cause it brings out a fear of not being able to see..and also brings the realisation that we always need aids to see the truth..sometimes even the biggest truth isnot strong enough to stand alone"
yes,i have no qualms in admitting i am al those things...on the brighter side,i am much more than this too.. but lets leave those things aside..
i am frustuated to the core..people fail all logic and senses in my world and they seldom understand me too..why?i ask myself and i know theanswer is the worst one ever n yet strangely true.."it's cause i am toosimple".. again,don't get this to be some kind of place where i keepexclaiming great things abt myself n playing the role of the wronged maiden in distress or the not so poor yet poor little girl living next door..
its much more than that..for instance it never ceases to amaze me how ppl hate the obvious n love the round about..to get to know aperson u like it's not enough to jus say"i like u,i need u..."instead one must first pretend to be all the things one isn't in the first place,pretend u dont exist to the other person,act all high and mighty when u r actually so desparate that u could actually readyto pounce on the first thing that comes ur way!!phew!what a whole wasteof effort..
why is it like this??someone who knows the answer please say..
if someone comes to u in distress u r exactly supposed to say those things which will soothe their "so called ego"..dare u say the truth!!why on earth???again if someone knows please feel free to speak..i'd be delighted to know...
another for instance,u NEVER get treated the same way as u treat people...WHY??i think it was,perhaps,the first lesson learnt duringour childhood."good begets good and so does bad"..then where does thisnew logic come in where good or bad both beget indifference..again,iam the clueless moron here.. moron cause there must be somethingwrong with me..i see nobody around me irked by such troubles.."damn!!they're lucky" i think cause either they don't face wat i do orthey don't see it,either of which is the case,the advantage is alltheirs....
strange,how the mind works..its wonders have never ceased to amaze meeach single living day..it must be very exciting to be a psychologisti muse..each mind a new mystery,no two minds alike..
yes,i have no qualms in admitting i am al those things...on the brighter side,i am much more than this too.. but lets leave those things aside..
i am frustuated to the core..people fail all logic and senses in my world and they seldom understand me too..why?i ask myself and i know theanswer is the worst one ever n yet strangely true.."it's cause i am toosimple".. again,don't get this to be some kind of place where i keepexclaiming great things abt myself n playing the role of the wronged maiden in distress or the not so poor yet poor little girl living next door..
its much more than that..for instance it never ceases to amaze me how ppl hate the obvious n love the round about..to get to know aperson u like it's not enough to jus say"i like u,i need u..."instead one must first pretend to be all the things one isn't in the first place,pretend u dont exist to the other person,act all high and mighty when u r actually so desparate that u could actually readyto pounce on the first thing that comes ur way!!phew!what a whole wasteof effort..
why is it like this??someone who knows the answer please say..
if someone comes to u in distress u r exactly supposed to say those things which will soothe their "so called ego"..dare u say the truth!!why on earth???again if someone knows please feel free to speak..i'd be delighted to know...
another for instance,u NEVER get treated the same way as u treat people...WHY??i think it was,perhaps,the first lesson learnt duringour childhood."good begets good and so does bad"..then where does thisnew logic come in where good or bad both beget indifference..again,iam the clueless moron here.. moron cause there must be somethingwrong with me..i see nobody around me irked by such troubles.."damn!!they're lucky" i think cause either they don't face wat i do orthey don't see it,either of which is the case,the advantage is alltheirs....
strange,how the mind works..its wonders have never ceased to amaze meeach single living day..it must be very exciting to be a psychologisti muse..each mind a new mystery,no two minds alike..
the truth is always the truth..it needs no aid for support(of course this would be an ideal situation)..yet we need wrappings of lies,comfort and deceit to have comfortable fallback..after all nobodylikes a nasty fall onto the hard ground of realities,eh?
